Have you ever gained someone and felt like you've lost something in life? Or have you ever lost someone and felt like you've gained something? How about thinking you want something to a certain degree because you feel like your life has been lacking it but when you finally receive it, you realize that your mind has desires greater than you can physically and emotionally handle as a human? Then that leaves me to thinking that maybe "I" am all there is, and the need to find companionship is a losing battle? I have always said that "words are my life" and now for reasons I CANNOT avoid, my life now only consists of words! When did affectionate begin to affect the way I feel about closeness? And when did closeness make me better appreciate being by myself? How come as soon as I set my mind to something........handsome distraction rears its ugly head? Am I being tested because I have already failed in the area of distraction in the past? Or am I being forced to choose writing as my true love because this is what I've decided to be married to until it blooms like flowers in the Spring?
Is life meant to be a Catch 22? Or does art imitate life, ultimately causing the "catch" in the first place?
I come out more knowledgeable and stronger in the end either way BUT life lessons sometimes SUCK!
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