NEVER

I just don't get it, why me!!! If someone could give me a concrete answer then I would leave it alone!! Since that hasn't been given to me then I guess the search continues. The search for my "best friend" continues. Is love this hard, can't be. When we were younger we didn't think it was going to be like this. Why have some been able to complete their check list so early in life for i.e college, marriage, kids!! WTF, I thought we were all on the same ride. Did I just get off of it too early or were we ever on the bus in the first place.

I have been labeled as a "late bloomer" due to having a child so much later than most of my friends. I used to be the one without kids. Living the carefree life, coming and going as I pleased. Seeing whomever as well as doing whomever. Unfortunately one of my misc. dicks became permanent and to no avail life was formed. DAMN, I thought I was on top of everything, I guess the only thing I was on top of was him. How could this have happened, a child out of wedlock!!! Something I've voweled "never" to do. I guess that is why they say, "never say never"!!