Merry Go Round!

Even the leaves that dance in the wind are going somewhere and I myself feel stuck. Like I am on a stationary bike and the wheels are moving but I'm not going anywhere. Either that or it feels like I'm riding around looking at the same houses on the same block with the same trees planted in the same places on the same sidewalks. Work then home, Monday through Thursday and then work and to my girlfriend's house on Friday nights, where I hang out with the rest of my single friends. My life has become too redundant and my mood is beginning to reflect such. I need either a serious career change OR the love of my life to show up! I could also go back into my Christianity really deep so that I could feel the loving arms of my Father around me and the loneliness would not feel as heavy. And my days would be filled with a balance of mind and joy, no matter my career! I've been there before and my life was awesome! And since I've been there before, I already know what it takes to get there but what I don't understand is why is it taking me so long to make a u-turn to head towards the road of peace and serenity? Because apparently what I'm attempting to do myself isn't working! And instead, what have I been doing almost every night after work because my job has been wearing me emotionally thin and I have no one to come home to and share my troubles with? Going to the bar and drinking my sorrows away! But just the opposite of a depressed drunk that plays the Whispers on the jukebox and hangs their head down low, I am automatically elated and happy about life after having a few, if not many, cocktails but let's be honest.........I can't live my life in a drunken stooper!