I am giving, loving, loyal, trustworthy, strong, sexual, great in the kitchen, a beast in the bed, a warrior by your side or silent and submissive, full of jokes and laughter or serious when my position calls for it, a go getter, a business minded, creative, cultured, educated, God fearing life experienced phenomenal woman from an awesome uppity upbringing that can ride in the ghetto wit you too…
and
I love you!
I love you!
…more than I should at times. I crave you in ways one should only crave their husband…but we are not married.
We, just are…
Parents
Friends
Confidants
Lovers
But I am feeling empty. I am lonely more than not. I am unfulfilled where you are concerned. I am not taken care of. And I’m tired.
We, just are…
Parents
Friends
Confidants
Lovers
But I am feeling empty. I am lonely more than not. I am unfulfilled where you are concerned. I am not taken care of. And I’m tired.
WHOA! I FEEL that & I hope they get to read THIS!!!!!!!!! They NEED TO.
ReplyDeleteThey SHOULD read it! Preach it, Big Business!
ReplyDeleteTara, Glitteratti...I am here to read this.
ReplyDeleteBig,
Last night...for the first time in our existence, I sat and truly thought about where I went wrong. Needing you more than I need the air I breathe, I replayed all of my missteps like a sports analyst replaying a game.
See, for so long you and I lived of of the fat of the land...and never the meat of our spiritaul existence. So quick to love what we can materialize through carnal measures, never taking the time to truly appreciate what we were created to be...together.
I love you to no end. And there is no other love that has more worth than what you give...and have given.
As men, we can be so selfish sometimes...
always thinking about what we need...
what we demand...
what we expect...
NEVER taking into consideration the constant deposits that need to be made into your emotional bank. And once you cry bankrupt, we try to pass our own stimulus plan...seeking to fix the deficit with a dump of emotional deposits. Well that SHIT doesn't work. I GET IT. Truly.
As a man...as the one who was once your man...I come to you on bended knee. I know you are tired...I know you are finished. Maybe another has caught your eye. But my prayer is that God has not hardened your heart, and has given us just one more chance to love you in the ways that need. And then some. Beyond borders...
My existence ceases without you. God purposed our lives as husband and wife. I know you know this. You spoke of this in your previous writings mused by our current circumstance.
You said that "We, just are…Parents, Friends, Confidants, Lovers". If THAT is truly the case, then we have what it takes...to simply add...DESTINY, PURPOSED, SOUL MATES, HUSBAND and WIFE.
Publicly, I come to you asking you to find it in your heart not to let us die. We can do this. For us...For our protege. For our families that pray for us, and desire us to make this bond permanent.
You will never have to worry about deposits made.
You will never have to wonder where I stand.
And while I cant remove the hurt, I can replace it with new memories, new experiences, new passion. And as God as my witness...I will be your warrior and fight every battle before you, knowing that God will protect me as I protect you.
You are my earth, Big. And without you...
There's nowhere to stand.
I love you.
I'm sorry.
Please come home.